Does Heaven Have An Address?


With this Wednesday, September 5th, comes my dad’s third Bladder Cancer surgery. The most recent and unfortunate news that his cancer metastasized further, felt like a bullet to the heart. We (as a family) have done everything humanly possible to try to stop the spread of this destructive illness.

Sitting in my parent’s house discussing the next plan of attack to destroy the cancer; my father with a calm voice looked over at us and uttered these profound words “Does heaven have an address and if not … how do you get there?” My mother and I let out a small nervous chuckle. Without missing a beat my mother responded. “Well, when it is your time to go to heaven you will feel it and you will know it’s time. You will not be asked to go to heaven until you have completed your journey in life.” Dad laid back in his comfy chair; perhaps to contemplate if his journey in life was complete.

After leaving my parent’s house that evening, I spent the rest of the week trying to figure out just how I felt about the journey to heaven. I do believe that your soul goes to a much kinder place after death. But do I know it’s a place called heaven? I was raised Catholic as a child and I still attend Catholic mass today; but now on my terms. I have always been more spiritual than religious. I often think I could easily practice Buddhism. Approximately 300 million people practice Buddhism; which makes it the fourth largest of the world’s religions. I truly believe in Karma, the law that every cause has an effect, i.e., our actions have results.

However, attending Catholic mass with all its pomp and circumstance, brings me back to my childhood. A time and place where I felt safe. I sometimes worry because I do tend to lean more spiritual than religious, I might be shown the long, wet and windy road to the afterlife. Gosh I hope not … I might just stick a pair of galoshes and some Dramamine in my afterlife luggage!

With my dad’s operation looming this week, I will be searching for my true faith. Whether I pray to God or meditate (meditation a yoga practice I dearly love) and call on Buddha for enlightenment … I will be searching. Does Heaven Have An Address?

12 responses to this post.

  1. Oh dear Kelly. What a heart-wrenching place for you and your family to be right now. Your dear father! And for each of you to find your personal spiritual moorings right now is significant. I know it would be for me, too. I am the Protesant counterpart to your Catholicism. I completely understand what you’e describing as true for me, too. But what I hold onto is that I do believe that God can be a comfort and that we don’t have to know all the answers or understand all mysteries to plug into that comfort. My prayers are with you all right now. I do pray, meditate, and hold onto faith, even when it’s shaky. And you will be in my thoughts throughout this very big week. Hugs, Debra


  2. Thank you so much for your kind words. I believe you hit the nail on the head with me. I think that I will pray, meditate and all the other above… Thank you for inspirational words.


  3. I agree with you Kellie, I’m more spiritual even though I raised my daughters Catholic. I have been blessed to experience many religions One thing I have found in common is the belief of a higher power. I pray frequently (throughout the day) and I’m learning meditation. Your dad is a wonderful strong man. Thank you, your mom is right he will know the address when it is time, as will the rest of us when it is our time.


  4. Posted by Wanda Graves on September 12, 2012 at 6:03 AM

    Kellie: I do believe in prayer,and God will give you comfort when you need it.I also believe that their is a heaven and if you believe that Jesus is your Lord and Saviour as I do,and I’m sure you do then someday we all will be reunited in Heaven.For now I pray for Bud,Polly and You to give you strength now and in the coming days ahead.I Love The Three of You so very much.


  5. Dear Wanda
    Thank you for dropping by my blog to read. Yours words are comforting. Do you think heaven has USC football?? I know Dad would really like to know ahead of time. Me, I am just hoping heaven has a Starbucks or some family owned coffee house. I can’t be bitchy in heaven … and all people who know me … knows I am not pretty without coffee. 🙂


    • Posted by Wanda Graves on September 12, 2012 at 4:46 PM

      I Love it Kellie and Yes I am smiling Big!!!!!Just saw a USC fan today, unreal his Mother is Living in Chapperal Just a condo away from where ray and i lived. They are real Big fans of USC,I’m saying this a small world.In answer to your question Yes!!!! and
      You guys are the BEST!!!!


  6. Strength to your dad and everyone in your family during this journey. Buddhism-Catholicism is an interesting blend …. 🙂


  7. Thank you Frank. Pulling on everything in my body I have to send positive vibes and thougths to my dear father and his fight. Thanks for caring.


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